![I feel very meh.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/36f4aee8-38c1-4ca7-9243-87a6fdcf7148_rw_1200.jpg?h=f0c0b27e09cb4679e8bf27045bffc391)
I feel very meh.
![If someone asks me what I am doing I'd like to ask to photograph them.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/ca57016c-64ee-4986-9b63-6849b7742b64_rw_1200.jpg?h=fb9a3c4ffe5c96a4f95dfeaea7b64a6f)
If someone asks me what I am doing I'd like to ask to photograph them.
![A cyclist was looking at me so I stretched.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/122b0a99-6225-453c-84f1-e4c2b585b6b1_rw_1200.jpg?h=9309bd89284106690dd461966b92fc2c)
A cyclist was looking at me so I stretched.
![I hope she didn’t film me/take pictures of me.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/a5219244-2414-4d24-9eb9-416d93af24a4_rw_1200.jpg?h=18cffdba49df2055c4bca54157091c83)
I hope she didn’t film me/take pictures of me.
![I mistake birds and squirrels for footsteps.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/e4f6dfbb-d169-41b3-86e2-16a4fe5e34e9_rw_1200.jpg?h=f199649478a87b0b4f1f410f6c9aed1a)
I mistake birds and squirrels for footsteps.
![I didn't feel safe anywhere.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/abd166d6-b106-4436-970c-b4130a98d970_rw_1200.jpg?h=6122f838095353eb1d449879bf23587e)
I didn't feel safe anywhere.
![I think they're gone now.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/a17a1423-dabb-408a-9aad-3b5c5bcc0967_rw_1200.jpg?h=b46204f7759fe18fc3ff4a7afd842976)
I think they're gone now.
![I'm feeling a bit weird.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/9311d205-1fae-45fb-b320-44711e6aa0ec_rw_1200.jpg?h=c707c4c1b3f85598d1738ebb343bb7e7)
I'm feeling a bit weird.
![I think I look more suspicious the more that I stop. I can’t help it though. My natural reaction is just to stop.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/a2b44502-03bb-4bef-b8ea-4e7b26301145_rw_1200.jpg?h=d2a11d4226831066476835203191e69a)
I think I look more suspicious the more that I stop. I can’t help it though. My natural reaction is just to stop.
![I stopped a few times waiting for people to go past.](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/676cac06-96d7-4c15-a9cf-80bb4883d599/f9427ea0-51ea-4b93-81e7-8a3ca49fa3b5_rw_1200.jpg?h=982619042dc53c3c5c4e71774e3138c4)
I stopped a few times waiting for people to go past.
'Photographing myself outside is a different story… I am scared. Scared of what people might think I am doing. Scared what they might say. Scared of what they might do… But yesterday I realised that I just needed to get outside.' - 1st October 2015.
In 2015 I realised how much anxiety was a theme within my work and present within my life.
Since moving to London in late 2010 I had mainly been taking self-portraits in my room/’studio’. Whilst making Amalgamated Anomalies I decided that I had to 'face my fears' and photograph myself outside. I kept a diary whilst on shoots which provided the captions.
Drawing/doodling is something that I have often done to relax or concentrate, so drawing on the photographs felt like a natural step to channel my anxiety.
Whilst studying Portuguese I saw neblina, which means light fog, and I liked how beautiful and dark it looked. It also seemed like a good way of describing how anxiety affects the inside of my head (it fills it with a light fog so I feel a bit lost and scared).
(This is a selection of images from the series)