I'm tired. It's been a long weekend of playing student for the weekend on 4 different alternative photography courses. I had two yesterday then went to a flat warming party. I managed to surprise T with a birthday cake as most of his friends were there. Then in the queue for the bathroom I checked twitter on my phone. I saw a hashtag about London Bridge and was confused. News of the news spread around the party. A group of us got the same train home together after a while. I was so tired but stayed up late reading the news. Today on waking up I read the news more, then went to 2 courses. I took the picture whilst in class. I kept checking the news throughout the day and it was weird passing through London Bridge in the morning and afternoon whilst the tube didn't stop there.
I always feel awkward when it comes to commenting about these things on social media. It feels like if you don't say anything then you're seen to not care even if 'in real life' you're having many conversations about these things. I felt this pressure (which maybe doesn't exist) to comment, particularly as this time it was closer to home and I knew a lot of people in the area last night, but whilst on my journey home I decided to remove it as it just sounded too... I don't know. I just felt awkward with it being there even if it is how I feel. The other day I dreamed about world peace and what would that mean - more money for education, health, everything. It's sad knowing that it will probably never ever happen, not in my lifetime and not in many more lifetimes.
I need to stop taking pictures of my feet/legs though... and I feel awkward as I think I chatted a lot of rubbish to people in the classes due to my usual way of trying to make conversation but not being particularly skilled in the art.