T was working today so I was looking forward to getting a lot of work done. I’ve got a self portraiture project to edit, but I have been putting off doing it. I got everything else done that needed to be and I opened the project file, looked at one picture then spent the rest of the evening procrastinating.
I got annoyed as I should have just given myself half of the day off. I do this a lot. There is always so much to be done, but I don’t give myself that much 100% chill time. Instead I procrastinate and waste time not doing work but not completely relaxing either. I feel bad when I let myself relax and not do work. There are times that I do do nothing, but I need to be more generous with that. Usually it’s when I go away for 2 days. That’s a good enough amout of time to be off.
I haven’t had a ‘proper’ week off in a while. The idea of a week long beach holiday sounds great but then I know I will be ‘bored’ after a day. I think I need to learn how to enjoy being ‘bored’… Every minute doesn’t need to be filled with something. I don’t need to check social media 100 times a day and whenever I have a spare second.
(Picture taken in the park when T got back from work. By the time we got there it was starting to get dark so didn’t stay long).